Now that fall is creeping upon us and I must evacuate the world of bare legs and skirts. (Well it’s slowly getting that time, plus, I dont want my new co-workers to think I only wear skirts.) I am realizing that either I have not shrunk that much since having Evan in December or I have changed shape so much that none of my pre-pregnancy pants fit at all, they are tight tight tigh. Ok the lowdown is that I am 25 lbs lighter then I was when I gave birth, but 10 pounds heavier then I was before I got pregnant, 20 lbs heavier then I was a year before I got pregnant, 50 lbs heavier then I was when I graduated University in 2000 and 80 pounds heavier then I was when I started university in 1997. Why do we obsess over numbers like we do, well it might have something to do with my ever expanding pants…I HATE PANTS. Even at 40 pounds lighter then I am today I have always had a hard time finding pants that fit right. My waist is significantly smaller then my hips which makes for a weird shape. I used to be 115 pounds and wear a size 9. I have never crammed myself into anything smaller then a 9.
Anyhow, I am frustrated and feeling ugly today, I have to get MORE active, I say ‘more’ cause I am very active. I have been blessed with the metabolism of a snail, so it takes me living a very stringent lifestyle to loose weight and nothing at all to gain. fun! Well for the next two months I am walking 20 minutes to and from work so hopefully that will help. Plus since I work for the YMCA we get a family membership for free, so I have to get my butt on a stairmaster, I can’t feel like this anymore. I just can’t.