And now it’s time once again for…..AT This Time Last Year

December 5th, 2007.
It’s 4am. I should be sleeping, I am 39 weeks pregnant and exausted. I can’t sleep.
Where do I begin?

My throat is burning and raw as is my nose and sinuses. Guess I am getting a cold and it came on quite suddenly tonight, don’t even know where i got it since I am on Mat leave and haven’t left the damn house. My left hip/pelvic region has been killer soar for 3 days, and it hurts to sleep in any position at all. I have been having contractions and cramps all week, tonight they are worse then usual, although not labor  bad yet, but enough to keep me awake. As I lay in bed awake due to all these factors, my stomach decides it is starving and starts growling and giving me hunger pains. So as I lay in bed grumpy, hungry and in pain listening to the hail and snowstorm outside my window, I gave up, got up had a shower to help with the joint pain and had a bowl of cereal.  Now if only these damn cramps would cease so I can go back to bed, each time I have one I feel like i have to pee, but its just the contractions pressing my bladder.
I can’t fucking believe I am getting a cold now, is my body not going through enough? I can truly say I have never felt so miserable in all my life.  Oh did I mention I also started breaking out this week. I have 3 painful pimples on my chin. My body is pissed and out of whack this week.  Ok I need to go lay in bed again, its 4am.  I am supposed to see the midwife at 11am so its not like I can sleep in all day. I can always nap after. I don’t know if she will even make it in to town, its messy out their tonight the roads are trecherous and she lives 40 minutes out of town, she may not drive in tomorrow after all.

A Few Hours Later…….

I am in so much pain and there is nothing in this house I can take. We only have AC&C’s and they are bad in the last weeks of pregnancy due to asprin content, it can cause bleeding in mom and fetus during labor and can also prolong pregnancy and labor, both bad things. So until Dave comes home with Tylenol I have to suffer. The snow storm is making my joints killer, like unreal burning pain in my left hip.

Midwife appt. went fine, told her how much pain I am in and how I am so ready to just have this baby now, I am just exausted and in pain. Baby’s heart is good, Blood pressure is about the same, which is ok, its if it goes up that is bad. 39 weeks today. She gave me some clove essential oil to have Dave massage my feet with to try and move labor along, as well told me to up my evening primrose oil intake, she also suggested I used my breast pumps to do nipple stimulation, 1 minute on, 2 minutes off for 1 hour at night time cause your hormone levels are higher at night, hence more contractions at night and why more people go into early labor overnight. She also highly recommended acupuncture. I told her I have no money at all, and she said, if you want  take your December payment to me and pay the acupuncturist cause I swear it will help with the pain as well as helping labor along. I will call and look into it.
Glad baby is doing well, moma is not doing to well, the hip pain and the head cold are making for one very unhappy camper. I can’t just stay in the shower or tub all day, but that is the only thing that seems to help. Grrr.

No really baby! Come on down.  PLEASE. I love you πŸ™‚

Not feeling chipper, cold, hip pain, got a new zit on my chin, a big painful one and I have had what seems to be untreatable athlete’s foot for like a couple weeks now, I know I had the virus for it, got it this past summer but it had been nothing or minor or non existant in terms of outbreak since then, now it just wont go away no matter how often I treat it, just keeps moving around toe to toe.

I think I am sharing my misery and sicky’ness with that babe who seems to have moved into slow motion for the past two days, either he is as tiered as I am, or he just feels sorry for my sick ass and is giving me a kicking break, he is moving a bit, but no hard core ass whopping like last week. His heart rate was perfect yesterday so I am not concerned , guess he is just laid back. Maybe he is getting ready to be born, soon, like this week, that would be so nice of him πŸ™‚ (Maybe this was significant, maybe not….but hey no one seemed concerned when I mentioned it…he did live 2 and a half weeks after this…) 

Well I want to try and have a nap even though I just woke up 3 hours ago, I feel really run down and sleepy so maybe a power nap is just what I need.
(Oh if only I knew then what I know now…Would it have made a differance, should I have had a Non Stress Test…Who knows??)


About mommamaynard

β€œLife is like riding a bicycle. To keep your balance you must keep moving.” β€” Albert Einstein. When it feels like your world has been shattered, and you have reached rock bottom, you must make a choice: Stay where you are and fade away, or keep moving forward. Thankfully I chose to move forward and was blessed with the two most wonderful children after the death of my first in early labor. Things are looking up.

Posted on December 5, 2008, in Uncategorized and tagged . Bookmark the permalink. 3 Comments.

  1. Oh gosh, it is so painful to read 😦 It reminded me of the entry I wrote one day before finding out she was dead, and I wrote that she is still snuggled inside me, no she was dead and I had no damn clue.

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