Worse Day

I am in Manhattan, the city where the Godfather series took place. I really hate the Godfather.  January 3rd, 4th and 5th, 2008 I spent all day in bed with Dave, not wanting to eat or drink, or talk, or live, so we watched the Godfather series. Now I associate the series with Evan’s death….
Tonight after 3/4 of a too expensive bottle of wine at an even more expensive French restaurant in Manhattan, on the cab home I saw a Godfather add, I bawled the rest of the cab home.

I hate today for so many reasons-What should have been Evan’s birthday, is now the worst day of the year. I used to love Christmas. I used to love it so much, all the holly jolly love and other Christmas bullshit.

The hotel room smells of Roses from the Rose scented candle I bought today to burn in his memory, Roses for love and for the roses we burried him with.

 

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About mommamaynard

“Life is like riding a bicycle. To keep your balance you must keep moving.” — Albert Einstein. When it feels like your world has been shattered, and you have reached rock bottom, you must make a choice: Stay where you are and fade away, or keep moving forward. Thankfully I chose to move forward and was blessed with the two most wonderful children after the death of my first in early labor. Things are looking up.

Posted on December 24, 2008, in Uncategorized and tagged . Bookmark the permalink. 6 Comments.

  1. **********HUGS***************

  2. much love and prayers for you.

  3. Just wanted to say I’m thinking of you guys.

  4. Thinking of you right now. 😦 *hugs*

  5. ((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((thishugisnotbigenough)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

  6. I love you Jaime, my heart is with you. I’ll be saying a prayer for you, Dave and Evan before I sleep. *hugs you*

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