Not feeling great today..

I am just blah today. Just blah!
Cold and sleepy and nauseous and bloated. I am wearing a stained shirt that I had no idea was stained until I got to work. Guess that is what happens when you get dressed at dusk. At least I have a cardigan to cover it.

I hate obsessive intrusive thoughts, especially when it’s about something negative. Today I just can’t stop thinking about the Caylee Anthony situation. It makes me both throw up and cry to try and wrap my brain around how a mother could drug her baby to sleep so that she could go out and party, and worse yet, how a mother could (accidentally or purposely) murder her own little girl. The grizzly details of this story are what really forge deep in my brain. The duct tape around her mouth with the little heart sticker over it.

I have to stop thinking about this, when I stop to think about the poor baby’s I just loose it. I just want to take every abused and neglected child in the world into my home and love them and give them all the life every child deserves.
I hate that people like this have kids. I will never understand why good people have infertility issues and stillbirth and then sociopaths and low lifes have kids galore that get left to die. I can’t understand it.

Man! it just makes me cry…

About mommamaynard

β€œLife is like riding a bicycle. To keep your balance you must keep moving.” β€” Albert Einstein. When it feels like your world has been shattered, and you have reached rock bottom, you must make a choice: Stay where you are and fade away, or keep moving forward. Thankfully I chose to move forward and was blessed with the two most wonderful children after the death of my first in early labor. Things are looking up.

Posted on January 23, 2009, in Uncategorized and tagged . Bookmark the permalink. 11 Comments.

  1. It will never make sense to me either.

  2. I haven’t heard about her drugging her to sleep. Did she confess to something? I have been trying to follow this story but haven’t saw much lately.
    It is a very sad story. I cant even understand why it all happened either.
    And life is really not fair at all. I hate it that so many crazy people have no problem having kids(and sometimes they don’t even take care of them) and then theres people that do EVERYTHING right and can’t have kids or their children die…its just not fair.

    • Ya there are statements from her boyfriend that she would joke about drugging Caley with infant tylenol so she would sleep thought the night.

      • See, this is why I don’t watch/ read/ listen to the news a lot. I do NOT need to know the specifics of that case (it’s bad enough I know what you’re talking about at all, I can’t really live under a rock, considering I have an internet connection… I wish I could!)
        And just for the record: Tylenol won’t actually drug a child to sleep (that’s a myth!) Believe me, while Rems was teething, I tried many, many times to get him to sleep through the night, and the Tylenol he took for teething DID NOT do it! It did perhaps help him fall asleep faster (because he was no longer in pain) but it isn’t a sleep-drug. I really don’t know why that myth persists… A LOT of people seem to believe it! (And yet, do they take Tylenol for sleeping? No.) Now… Tylenol cold and flu is another matter entirely, because it has the wonderous Benedryl in it, which WILL help a child (and an adult! I’ve used it!) fall asleep, but it won’t guarantee they’ll sleep through the night, either. (They don’t make infant benedryl, nor should they. Remy did not ever get it until he was 2 and I used it when he was REALLY in pain and needed it.)
        Duct tape over a child’s mouth is Just Wrong and I will now have to scrub my mind to get that image out of my head. :((((((((((((((((((

      • Some kids will even have the opposite effect. My son broke out in a bad rash once and the doctor had us give him Benedryl. Instead of sleeping it off like he should have he ran around like we had given him a gallon of kool-aid to drink πŸ™‚

      • Oh yes, indeed! I actually get hyper on Benedryl if I take too much (I actually prefer to take the children’s dose for that reason… I have bad allergies and sometimes claritin or zyrtec don’t work.)

      • Ya my mother get’s hyperactive when she takes Gravol instead of groggy.

      • I have to agree, I don’t watch the news or read the paper (outside the local free artsy paper) either cause it makes me sad, and makes me think about bad things compulsively, I heard about this from a client yesterday. We were talking about motherhood and how much she loves her 1 year old and it’s changed her and then she mentioned this. I was so upset by it.

      • That sucks. I have a friend who does the same thing (shares bad news with me). I know she means well (and she needs to talk about it to get it off her mind) but do I really need to know?
        I hope you can find freedom from the obsessiveness of negative thoughts (((((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))))

      • Ya. Damn PTS.
        I have always been a worrier but since loosing Evan I always feel like the sky is falling, like something bad is lurking around each corner.
        Well I have come leaps and bounds-I mean I am completly free of Anxiety meds and not having panic attacks anymore so that is a good thing πŸ™‚

      • Yay for your leaps and bounds πŸ˜€

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