Two nightmares two nights in a row. I am zonked from crappy sleep with crappy dreams. It’s also been very very grey here since last Saturday and this entire combination is causing some hefty depressing moods. Yoy!
Things are just not going well with Dave in terms of things working out financially, things just keep collapsing instead. It’s so sad, I wish just one of 1000000 things he has tried would work out for him. He pays balance protection insurance on his credit card to protect himself in times like this, has for years, after it’s all said and done they want to give him $25.00 a month-his minimum payment is $80 WTF? He has been waiting 48 hours to hear back from a manager to explain how that is. He has two jobs he was working on when he got injured, he can finish 80% by himself but need’s help for cuts on the table saw and some lifting, he has a friend who said he would help, Dave will pay him for his time, he has cancelled 2x already, it’s 2 measly days. When he called last night to say he can’t do it at all this month, I fell to the ground and cried. If he can get these job’s done he will get $500 after having paid his helper. That is more then he is making a month right now on workers compensation. If we were anywere near family, or our many many Toronto friends, we wouldn’t feel so helpless and alone. We are new here and have only a handful of friends, none of them carpenters. Dave has two more surgeries before his hand is fully healed. We are debating meeting with a bankrupcy trusty to see how he could do that without it impacting me, cause I have great credit and the house is in my name, but really just want that to be a last resort. Why does it seem like everyone kicks you when your down?
Mom comes tonight for the weekend-I hope we have fun. I need a good weekend. Ok last weekend was really good to, I admit it. 🙂
In these times of heavy depression I have to tell myself-I have an amazing husband and a great partnership, that is something many people don’t have and I know I am blessed. I own my own home, it’s so cute and totally affordable under normal circumstance, less then renting. I have the sweetest Dog who loves me so much and makes me smile every single day. I am healthy and relatively fit. I have a really good life compared to many many people. Things will get better, I just have to hold on long enough to get there. I am lucky and blessed, just having a rough run of things lately.
Repeat as ofter as needed. 🙂