The Waiting Game Again.
Ok Ovulation confimed, but my cycles are doing weird and wacky things lately like suddenly becoming 28 day cycles and having me O on day 18 rather then 20-21. I also never noticed any abundant CM until the day that FF has marked as ovulation, but the think with that is, I got a possitive OPK on the day of Ovulation according to FF, wereas last month the day of was negative, the day before was possitive. Only thing I can think is that is happened like late at night while I was asleep or something since I took the opk around 5pm. Odd. Anyways, we will see. FF says if I conceived this month I would be due 12/07/09 that is 4 days before Evan’s due date due to earlier O this time around. Still I am thinking it would be so much more stressful having a parallel pregnancy, I want them to be worlds differant after all, with a better outcome this time around. I guess that goes without saying.
Anyhow chart is here.
Speaking of Evan, I don’t feel him around much anymore, not like I used to feel him. I think his soul has moved on to it’s afterlife place and is at peace. I think I have to do the same. I am getting better one day at a time, stronger. I hope. You know grief, it sneaks up on you when you least expect it.