My intincts tell me that my period is nigh.
I don’t want to be a party pooper, and even I try and try to convince myself that I might be pregnant right down to the last second, but
my instincts tell me this bithchyness, nausea and crampy bloating is all PMS and that tommorow or the next day Aunt Flo will be here and I will cry again, b/c even though I pretend I don’t care. I have been waiting 2 years for a baby. I will suck it up as I always do and try again next month, but it’s getting really tiering really fast to be all enthusiastiac right up until spotting and then be like, oh wait maybe it’s implantation bleeding…it’s always my period.
Man I am soo hard on myself, I mean in reality it only been 4 months, well 5 now, but I just feel like it’s sooo much longer b/c in my world it’s been 2 years. I just don’t understand why if you are having sex all the time, and clearly ovulating, and clearly catching the ovulation with temp, cm and opk, why do the sperm and egg just not get on the ball…
There is no guarantee I am not pregnant now, but let’s just say I feel pre-menstral and I had pale pink streaks in my cf this morning.
Oh well ces la vie. I am trying hard to remember all that I am greatful for and not be emo kid.
I have alot going for me. I have a job, a house, a great husband and loving pets.
I have a car, a yard, my own in home washer, dryer and dishwasher.
I have lots of family and friends that love me dearly.
For this I am greatful.