Alone at sea, floating in sad.
People like this…
…make me wish they could walk one week in my shoes…..
…then me what it means to be crazy!
To Mom on mothers day!
When you say things like "please don’t talk like that, it hurts me to very much" it makes me angry, because God forbid I hurt you with how I feel, let me tell you, it’s 100000 worse to feel what I feel on mothers day. Then I forgive you because you follow it up with " i know you are in pain, i find it very hard to find words to say to you that won’t upset you" and " you deserve to be honored on mothers day as much as the rest of us, hopefully next year you will have a baby". BUT could you please leave it there, and not follow it up with an email taking the conversation back to you with requests like "will do me a cover letter and apply for the job for me"……
It annoys me sooo much that for 32 years of my life, I have spent it comforting you and taking care of you. I told you this when I was in recovery from Anorexia, I told you this again after Evan died and I am saying it again. I am the kid, you are the parent…not the other way around. Parents are supposed to take care of their kids, then later in life, kids can take care of their parents in return. Can I have just one day to be me without having to take care of you or worry about you. Please! Man oh man. I get so mad, but you don’t even know your doing it…so how can you ever change?
I guess I just have to learn to live with you the way you are.
Love Your daughter.