10 weeks and a bit.
Ok now I KNOW I felt the baby moving, for sure. Before I thought maybe but then maybe it was just gas, this is not gas and I felt it alot more last night. Like light fluttering all around and then occasionally along the front wall of my uturus, like a little swimming fish would feel, almost a tickle even. I somehow just know when I feel it that it’s the wee one 🙂 and that makes me happy, cause that has GOT to be a good sign of health 🙂
Got my letter, my fetal assessment/ultrasound is on July 22nd, I will be 13 weeks, I am sooooo surprised that is the first time they want to see me, but ok, that’s in 2 weeks, fine. I just expected they would be all over me because of the whole Lupus Anticoagulant thing. All along they have been like oh well, there is no boarderline, (I was just over the cut off for lupus anticoagulant to be an issue) there is only yes or no and you are yes. We recommend Lovenox/Heparin for second and third trimester as well as for 6 weeks post partum. Then at Evan’s autopsy results, when the coroner said to everyone, he saw nothing at all to lead him to believe it had anything to do with blood clotting issues, they said, well we will re-evaluate the need for Heparin this pregnancy and discuss if it’s worth taking as a preventative measure anyways. Thus I expected they would want to talk about this around 11 weeks or so, before actually crossing into the second trimester. Guess not.
I am torn and don’t know what to do, which is why I need to sit down and discuss it with a medical proffesional who knows. My OB dosen’t know which is why she reffered me to the specialist for this stuff. If the ultrasound shows all is well growth wise and dates match, and furthur ultrasounds show the same, I am tempted to just say obviously an aspirin a day is working fine (since I had nothing with Evan, since we didn’t know the condition existed and hello, he was nearly 8lbs and 21 inches, not growth restricted) however, if it really does increase my chances of bringing home a living baby then give me the damn needles so I can shoot myself up. Anything for this child, anything……
Well I guess I just wait now, I do see my doctor on the 14th and she did think she should be able to find the heartbeat on the dopler then so i guess that will help ease my mind a little. I just need to see this baby and know it’s heart is beating, or at least hear it. I feel like I have been waiting a million years already, and the 22nd feels so far away. At least that will be done before Dave’s mom arrives on the 25th though 🙂