other 19 weeks stuff..

Had monthly check up with OB yesterday, all was great. Only gained 1kg to date so not bad at all considering how much I eat.
Baby’s heartrate was fine and dandy, as was BP and urine check, so nothing to complain about for sure. Monday is the big ultrasound were I hope and pray A) all is developping as it should and B) We can find out gender.

Doctor asked how I was feeling, I said I was feeling good outside of the pelvic pain already making it’s pressence know. (Start Physio on Monday). I told her straight up, for any normal person, things are progressing wonderfully. I feel good, my skin is clearing up, I have more energy, I am not barfing as much. However for a loss momma, feeling so well coupled with feeling very limited and irregular movement means this is a very hard time for me. I keep wondering every day if everything is fine, if the baby is still thriving in there. I have no way to know at this point since I am not sick, and not getting kicked, which means you just have to trust your body is doing it’s thing. I don’t trust that my body is doing it’s thing, my body has let me down once before. I just take it one day at a time and tell myself to stay possitive and stay calm. I was so relieved things looked so good yesterday. 

Mostly, I feel like a backseat passanger in this pregnancy, sitting back and watching things unfold before me, praying I get to my final destination with everyone abord still breathing and intact.   

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About mommamaynard

β€œLife is like riding a bicycle. To keep your balance you must keep moving.” β€” Albert Einstein. When it feels like your world has been shattered, and you have reached rock bottom, you must make a choice: Stay where you are and fade away, or keep moving forward. Thankfully I chose to move forward and was blessed with the two most wonderful children after the death of my first in early labor. Things are looking up.

Posted on September 9, 2009, in Uncategorized and tagged , , . Bookmark the permalink. 4 Comments.

  1. You might feel like a backseat passenger through the process but you and your body and your loving heart are doing all the work for little baby. Doctors and midwives are just a little extra help. *hugs*

  2. I’ve been thinking of you a lot today, just wanted to let you know. (((HUGS)))

  3. I am glad the appt was well. I am praying for you as u know already! πŸ™‚ *hugs*

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