Follow up to last nights post…
I am so dismayed, and being as sensitive as I am, I am bawling my eyes out. Keep in mind this is a conversation from a life long friend. Best for a few years of high school. I choose to private message her to explain furthur without putting my business all over facebook.
Here is the result, I need to share to get outside judgement here-Was I really so wrong that you would unfriend me….I wasen’t seeking a pity party, I was trying to demonstrate why we have no money at all right now, and since it didn’t seem clear otherwise, I was laying it out. Also before you read..please know I had NO idea she had been trying for 6 years, she never ever told me. I would be super sensitive to that, but I can’t read minds…I am just so hurt and shocked and I don’t know what to do…
So please, I just want you to see things from my perspective before you just assume I don’t care, I am not trying, or I am just cheap…None of the above applies at all. Most of all I don’t want to fight with you about it, you don’t have to agree with me, but please just try and not judge me. I respect you and our friendship enough I would hope i wouldn’t judge you without understanding everything.
I understand you’ve had tragedies in your life, we all do. We all have to deal with the shit we’re dealt with.. if this sounds harsh, I’m sorry but that’s just *the way it is. Cut and dry, yes. My life hasn’t been all gum drops and fairytails either.
Remember, I grew up with a very abusive alcholic for a father, been raped 6 times among other things.. no, I haven’t had the curse of loosing a first child, but my Mother did. My sister was a soul lost too. I don’t know what it is like to loose like that, but don’t go and throw things like that in my face when we ALL have shit to deal with. I have osteoporosis, my teeth are chipping & breaking away and you’re telling me that I am judging you??? Colin & I have been trying for 6 years to have a child and are unable to, so count your fucking blessings that you are able!
When I say I’m done Jaime, that’s exactly what I meant. I’m done. I don’t argue, it’s not worth my time. Using excuses is not my style. Saying that you’re pregnant and moody, that’s fine, but stop using it as an excuse for pitty.