Happy Moma…death to kitty??
Of course not really, don’t go jumping all over me. I am LOOSING my mind…loosing it and this cat is the culprit, well both but today this one specifically, see picture above…
She the cat that bolted out, she wants to be outside? all the time? She is not an outdoor cat and her shots are out of date so I need to get her new shots done asap. Since she got out twice she walks around the house whinning day and night, around the clock, like a cat in heat would only she is 10, spayed and not in heat, she want’s to be outside. She has woken me up every 2 hours for the past 2 nights, I am pregnant and exausted (not looking for pity, just venting) and not getting restful sleep, I am at nerves end this morning, and each time she cries out, I feel my blood boil. I think I am actually almost ready to just kick her the hell out so I can get a moment’s peace. I am normally a very patient girl, my patience is at the end of it’s rope, I can feel tension bolt through me each time I hear her little squeeky voice yell out AGAIN. Please please shut her up….I have been over it, again and again, nothing has changed in our daily lives in over a year except me being pregnant, and I have been that before, in fact things changed more with Evan cause we started collected baby stuff immediately, they barely reacted.
I just don’t know how I am going to balance all this. A baby, a screatching cat, another cat who has suddenly decided he is not using his litter box anymore no matter what. and then a pup…a baby dog who is supposed to be the neediest of the damn bunch but is making things easy on me….Wow! How the hell will the cat’s react when I actually bring a baby home? I am sure it’s a vicious cycle, the cat’s sense my tension and get tense ect..but I wasn’t tense like 4 weeks ago before all this crap started. I wish more then anything right now I could find a good family with a good home to take my kitties so I can feel good they are taken care off and so that I could get 1 day to myself before…..my child is here. 10 years…not one day at hard as this past month has been…why now? I mean dealing with litter boxes, shedding and other cat missbehaviours was ok when they were good company. Now I just feeling resent and anger at them cause no matter how hard I try, they won’t seem to change back..
They say ask for help when your feeling overwhelmed with your baby, well mine isen’t here yet and it worries me that I am having fantasies of picking the cat and chucking her the hell outside. Her unending screams are piercing my ears and making me cringe,
and I am so happy otherwise, so happy last night, on cloud 9 all night, then she kept me up all night and is still screaming at me now as I type this. Ignoring her won’t work, yelling at her won’t work, putting her in a cold shower didn’t work, locking her in the basement with food and litter at night didn’t work cause she screams through the door and into my bedroom..I so done.