I am feeling so exausted. I have had the fog brain all day. I don`t understand cause I slept well last night. I did however get awoken several times by a certain baby growing in my womb. She is getting stronger and stronger and last night from 3-4 am seemed to be having a rave in there. I have been absolutely famished all day for the past three days as well, so I guess maybe baby is having another growth spurt and I am exausted from that. I just ate a yogurt cup, a frozen lunch thing of macaroni ground beef and cheese and then half a cucumber and I could more, I never eat that much.
Having on and off groin and SI pain, most day`s it`s fine but I have started physio and sleeping with a body pillow foot to groin so I think that is helping alot. Physiotherapist confirmed my thought, my pelvis is not well aligned and my right side and lower back are quite weak. I have 4 different exercised to do 3 reps of 10 each day to strengthen those muscles. She also told me to not open my legs wide (dirty mind cue here), not lift anything any heavier then Oliver (10lbs) and limit my walking to no more then 30 minutes total a day for now. I hope all of this will make the difference in my pain level in the last trimester, so afraid of the pain I had in the end with Evan and praying I don`t have to go there again.
My breasts are still super sensitive and on and off I get shooting pain deep in the tissue, all I can guess is that they are getting ready for milk production. My belly is swelling and swelling and getting hard as a rock, I can`t even imagine how big I will be come 35-38 weeks haha.
Overall I am feeling happy and peaceful these days tinged with a streak of anxiety. Loving feeling the babe move around in there, making her presence known, but it’s not regular or patterned yet. I want so badly to start shopping for girl stuff and going through Evan`s stuff and decide what I will keep and what I can part with. Dave and I have even discussed what we want to do with the nursery, but I am just not ready to do it all yet. I think I will feel a bit more ready after our follow up ultrasound in just over a week. I say cause I want to be SURE it`s a girl before I start selling off. The other thing is I keep thinking each little milestone will be "the" milestone that convinces me everything will be fine this time around, but each of those milestones come and go and I find myself just as nervous as ever, so I guess I just to live it with this anxiety and hope things work out.
Right now I need more food and have eaten all my lunch and snacks..I will have to go have a bagel from the lunchroom I guess. Grow baby grow, I will eat as much as I need to, you just keep growing.