Trouble in Paradise
I am 27 weeks, this means I have 11 weeks to go and today I can barely walk.
Since my last post my PSD has lessened a bit in the groin area and migrated out to the SI joint, which means shotting pains up and down my right leg when I move. I am TERRIFIED of this pain because it bring back horrible memories of the excruciating pain I was in with Evan’s last month, I could not walk or leave the house, it was the worse nerve pain I have ever experienced and I was so depressed.
I found myself wide awake bawling and sobbing uncontrollably this morning at 4am cause I was exausted but couldn’t sleep I was in such pain. I know I have alot of pent up trauma from this injury b/c each time it resurfaces I just lose it. I was depressed my last month of Evan’s pregnancy cause I couldn’t leave the house, clean the house, cook, move, breath without dire pain. I am a busy body, I can’t psychologically handle being immobilized for 3 months, I just can’t. Last time no one could help me, tylenol did not work, ten’s machine did not work, physio did not help, they just told I have to live through it until baby came. The only thing I can see that may help with be chiropractic treatment, however, as per my shit experience with the last chiropractor charging me $900 for 2 months of treatment, I have nothing left on my insurance for chiro, so I would have to pay out of pocket. However, if it’s going to take the pain away and lift my mood then I will put it on my credit card and worry about it in 3 months..I hate doing this cause I don’t need more debt stressing me out while I am on mat leave and getting significantly less money in, but despret times call for despret messures and physio alone is not cutting it.