Greatful for all your thoughts.

Thanks all for your kind words, we have gotten thought another angel-versary/Christmas Eve. It did help to spend it with family, good food and thoughtful gifts. Evangeline made it though kicking, sad that I even have to say that, but I was greatful to wake up this morning to her moving in my belly. It crossed my mind how horrible it would be to loose two babies on Christmas. Then in the next breath told myself I was crazy to even let that creep in, she is fine.

Mom’s best friend’s mother knit us the tinest little pink cardigan and hat set for Evangeline, it’s so perfectly beautiful I teared up when I opened it and promised myself she will leave the hospital wearing it. I felt the panic and anxiety build up when mom kept talking about her grand-daughter over and over and over. She got a pretty picture frame that holds three pictures and she said I am going to put pictures of Evangeline in this. I just kept thinking over and over again that I hope I don’t let her down and break her heart again. She was soooo excited about Evan and so devastated by his passing. I wish I could just rejoice in the moment and say in 4 short weeks we will have her in our arms. I want to believe we will.

Anyhow, we are doing our best to enjoy the season, we are watching the Christmas in South Park DVD that I bought Dave in our jammies right now after a nice family breakfast. Oliver is having a wonderful Christmas with with his girlfriend Kattie, my mom’s Shitzu. 🙂

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About mommamaynard

“Life is like riding a bicycle. To keep your balance you must keep moving.” — Albert Einstein. When it feels like your world has been shattered, and you have reached rock bottom, you must make a choice: Stay where you are and fade away, or keep moving forward. Thankfully I chose to move forward and was blessed with the two most wonderful children after the death of my first in early labor. Things are looking up.

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