I just dosed myself with Rescue Remedy and finished painting some plaques that will be hook hanger things for the new guest room.
I am feeling more calm. Thank goodness for the existance of Rescue Remedy.
I was thinking I am going to need buckets of this stuff post partum cause I know the anxiety dosen’t just dissapear when you give birth,
then there is new stuff to worry about.
I was never an anxious person before lossing Evan and Satara, now it’s sometimes all consuming. Constant fear of death. I even get anxious when Oliver is out of the leash alone in the back, I have to look out every 2 minutes, I seriously worry people will dog nap him cause he is a yorkie and they sell for alot. He is like my favorite thing on the planet right now, when I am sad, I rub his belly and he licks me and everything feels better for the moment. I guess it makes sense he and Evangeline are like my biggest concerns in life right now, they both hold my heart in the palm of their hand, or paw in Oliver’s case. He is the first dog I have owned full time and I have to say, I never knew I could love an animal so deeply, or be loved so deeply in return. Oliver the wonder dog was a blessing from God when he fell into our lap and our lives.
Anxiety sucks ass, luckily, mostly I can control it with self talk and rescue remedy.