Rescue Remedy

Stupid Anxiety.

I just dosed myself with Rescue Remedy and finished painting some plaques that will be hook hanger things for the new guest room.
I am feeling more calm. Thank  goodness for the existance of Rescue Remedy.
I was thinking I am going to need buckets of this stuff post partum cause I know the anxiety dosen’t just dissapear when you give birth,
then there is new stuff to worry about.

I was never an anxious person before lossing Evan and Satara, now it’s sometimes all consuming. Constant fear of death. I even get anxious when Oliver is out of the leash alone in the back, I have to look out every 2 minutes, I seriously worry people will dog nap him cause he is a yorkie and they sell for alot. He is like my favorite thing on the planet right now, when I am sad, I rub his belly and he licks me and everything feels better for the moment. I guess it makes sense he and Evangeline are like my biggest concerns in life right now, they both hold my heart in the palm of their hand, or paw in Oliver’s case.  He is the first dog I have owned full time and I have to say, I never knew I could love an animal so deeply, or be loved so deeply in return. Oliver the wonder dog was a blessing from God when he fell into our lap and our lives.

Anxiety sucks ass, luckily, mostly I can control it with self talk and rescue remedy.

About mommamaynard

“Life is like riding a bicycle. To keep your balance you must keep moving.” — Albert Einstein. When it feels like your world has been shattered, and you have reached rock bottom, you must make a choice: Stay where you are and fade away, or keep moving forward. Thankfully I chose to move forward and was blessed with the two most wonderful children after the death of my first in early labor. Things are looking up.

Posted on January 6, 2010, in Uncategorized and tagged , . Bookmark the permalink. 2 Comments.

  1. i understand, i was sooo worried about mairi and keith after we lost catti…it sucked. and i consumed RR by the gallon i think when preggo with eli esp at the end. deep breaths mama, you are in the home stretch!!!

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