Messages in disguise bring comfort

Remember this post where I wrote about the dream I had about a Hindu Goddess Lakshmi protecting Evangeline?
I got emotional and almost weirded out tonight on my way home from Natashia’s as she said, this is the last time
it will be just us hanging out..I realised I hadn’t put alot of thought into the fact that I will have a baby soon. Dave said the same. We think about her and how she is doing, we pray for her well being and to not have another stillbirth,  but we haven’t thought about her and how she will change our lives ect..not like we did with Evan. With Evan we had memories of him that made the loss hurt more they were day dreams of times we would have and things we would do. Neither of us have any of these around Evangeline, It’s almost still too sureal to think we might actually get a real living baby of our own. I just haven’t been able to fully make my brain realise that possibility.

Anyways, I take it as a good sign that right after that conversation I come home and check my email, and there is an email in there from Grandmother that says I am sending you a Lakshmi for luck. In it was a big glorius photo of Laskshmi, it made me smile ear to ear. I sure hope she is watching over my sweet Evangeline and will see her to us safely.


About mommamaynard

“Life is like riding a bicycle. To keep your balance you must keep moving.” — Albert Einstein. When it feels like your world has been shattered, and you have reached rock bottom, you must make a choice: Stay where you are and fade away, or keep moving forward. Thankfully I chose to move forward and was blessed with the two most wonderful children after the death of my first in early labor. Things are looking up.

Posted on January 16, 2010, in Uncategorized and tagged , , . Bookmark the permalink. 2 Comments.

  1. 😀
    I realized after having Rems that I had NO CLUE what having a baby would actual entail. And I think with this one I feel both slightly more prepared (I know what will happen) but less so, too, because TWO! KIDS? Weirdness.
    Anyhoo, what I’m trying to say (and failing!) is that no matter what you envision, the reality will slaYs be different. Sometimes it will knock you on your ass and sometimes it will hold you down and smother you with amazement. Either way, we’re never really ready and yet we are.
    May Lakshmi smile and bring you joy!!!!!!!

    • Thanks Dahling.
      As for whom will update my LJ when she is here…hmm good question, it haden’t even crossed my mind, I was thinking we could since the hospital has wi-fi.

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