Messages in disguise bring comfort
Remember this post where I wrote about the dream I had about a Hindu Goddess Lakshmi protecting Evangeline?
I got emotional and almost weirded out tonight on my way home from Natashia’s as she said, this is the last time
it will be just us hanging out..I realised I hadn’t put alot of thought into the fact that I will have a baby soon. Dave said the same. We think about her and how she is doing, we pray for her well being and to not have another stillbirth, but we haven’t thought about her and how she will change our lives ect..not like we did with Evan. With Evan we had memories of him that made the loss hurt more they were day dreams of times we would have and things we would do. Neither of us have any of these around Evangeline, It’s almost still too sureal to think we might actually get a real living baby of our own. I just haven’t been able to fully make my brain realise that possibility.
Anyways, I take it as a good sign that right after that conversation I come home and check my email, and there is an email in there from Grandmother that says I am sending you a Lakshmi for luck. In it was a big glorius photo of Laskshmi, it made me smile ear to ear. I sure hope she is watching over my sweet Evangeline and will see her to us safely.