Had another good biophysical today. I was concerned cause my fluid level changed by half since last week from 6cm to 3cm. I was freaked because we have no idea if low fluid was related to Evan’s cord accident because I did not have a late term ultrasound to look at it. Anyways, they told me it’s perfectly normal, not to panic or worry, that anything over 2 is fine and that later in pregnancy fluid levels do lessen. So then they booked me another Biophysical for 39 weeks and I said, oh no, I will not need a 39 weeks appointment trust me haha. They said well we will book just incase, you can miss it..
After that I went downstair to see the peri. her nurse did my urine, weight, bp, fundal height and baby heartrate as she always does. Urine was fine, weight was down again..(I am at 11 pounds gained now?? I guess it’s cause I have been sick and eating a bit less, fundal height was normal and heartrate was 155 again typical for E. My BP however was high, I laughed because I had been having panic attacks for 2 days, so ya, it’s anxiety hypertension totally. Anyways, then my Peri came in to see me, said she was not at all surprised about my BP, said she would be ok with going with induction this weekend if that’s best for me and my OB, and said she just wanted to check my cervix.
Cervix check revealed 1cm dialated and 30% effaced, soft cervix, but not ripe enough to go straight for a pitocen induction. She did a membranes sweep while I was there which hurt every bit as much as I remember it hurting. Man that hurts. Then booked my induction appointment for 9am Saturday, that way I have the next two days to see if things will pick up on their own (I had some major contractions last night all night) and if not then Saturday morning they will do the prostaglandin gel and 6 hours later determine if I need pitocen or am progressing on my own just from the gel.
Then she took my BP again and it was perfectly normal haha. I guess I just needed to know the plan.
Either way Evangeline should be here by Sunday. It’s amazing to me, and I am so scared it’s retarded. I have only given birth once and no living baby happened as a result so the idea of birth again is freaking the hell outta me..and yet I have had 38 weeks to prepare for it, but still, my body is reliving the trauma, sensible or not. I have been having on and off panic attacks for the past 24 hours, so hoping I can relax my mind and think as possitively as possible over the next day and a half, and then, hopefully, I will her Evangeline cry her first cries and I will be a mom to a real live baby and I will be thankful for everyday for the rest of my life. I am so unable to really wrap my brain around it right now..it all feel’s so surreal even as she kicks me in the ribs right now. Wow. Will I really get to keep a living baby? Really?
Please pray for us all day long, if you light candles for people then light a candle for us, send us wishes all day for a easy enough delivery and a healthy baby at the end. We appreciate it.
I will update facebook quickly from my phone, I will get someone else to update my LJ for me if I can. Thats all for now, off to nap because I feel like crap and didn’t sleep a wink last night.