More to come..
I know it seems like my life is all peaches and sunshine…
and truthfully, I have all I ever wanted (except Evan) so things are pretty good all in all. However, there are so many layers and depths to what I am feeling right now, and alot of them are tainted in sadness, anxiety and just plain overwhelment, and some days are great and others are very hit and miss. I will try to get this all into words…You know its always easier to write about the good and great and hard to touch on the rough or seedy underbelly. I knew motherhood wouldn’t be easy, and I know I am only 1.5 weeks in and 1 week home alone with her, and I am still learning..but hormones and prior injuries and broken sleep, and overwhelming joy and love.,.it’s all so intense.
Sure wish I had more family close that’s for sure..days seem longer when spent alone, Dave is only working part time so thank God for that.