In response to yesterday’s PPD post….
I did have a great chat with my Dr. today, she doesn’t think I have Postpartum Depression, but will keep watch to see if things change, for now she prefers the wait and see and ask for help and take my vitamins over jumping on the medication bandwagon. She says she see’s lots and lots of mom’s and I am reacting like almost all first time mom’s she sees with a limited support system. I am sleep deprived and anxious, and I don’t have any family and just 2 friends in this town so I am very alone and overwhelmed, but it’s all normal. Also I am prone to mild SAD and it’s grey dead of winter here so that is another factor. She really feels it’s something that will pass on it’s own if I can wait it out, and so I am to take vitamin D drops, omega fats supplement and a high dose B complex supplement daily and take it one day at a time. She said the best thing I can do is do is do nothing but care for baby and myself and sleep as much as possible and let the rest go, she will see me in 2 weeks and we will talk more but I am to call before then if I feel worse or feel I can’t take care of baby or myself.
Overall she said I should be feeling more like myself by 4 months if I take that advice and remember Evangeline is being a normal newborn, all she is going through is so normal and she is fine. Trust myself and my mommy instinct and stop reading into everything everyone elses baby is doing. We shall see. My husband agrees with her RX. I do feel better today after getting lots of sleep and talking to her about it. Much better day.
I should mention yesterday’s post was mostly triggered by a horrible, worst ever night on Tuesday night when Evangeline cried on and off from 9pm until 3am. Last night she slept all night except waking to eat, so I guess even she was exhausted from the night before. Seems to be our pattern it’s like good night, good night, bad night, bad night, REALLY bad night, good night, good night ect..so I tend to feel hopeless and then she get’s better and I feel better, then it starts all over again…
Bottom line is I need more mom’s with babies her age in my life so I can see I am normal and she is normal.