Wow. Evangeline straight up cried from 9pm to 1:30am longest ever and the only thing that would soothe her was rocking. Dave and I took turns rocking her for hours. At 1:30am I literally fell asleep rocking her in bed. After that she awoke every 3 hours to eat, so no long stretch for me last night. I guess to make up for the 6 hours straight she slept the night before.
We have tried everything and really thought things were much better, getting decent sleep with a moody but less so baby. Last night threw any progress we had made to the wind. Dave and I had our second big fight about parenting and he slept on the couch (he had to work this morning and the baby ensured he got no sleep at all, he works with powertools for a living). We have done everything we can imagine to help her and it just seems that she is cranky at night and gets so worked up she misses her bedtime and won’t sleep despite yawning and giving us tons of other sleepy cues. I won’t list now all the thinks we have tried cause it’s long but she has been this way since 2 weeks, so 5.5 weeks of hard nights of varying intensity. Some nights are doable but nights like last really really wear on your nerves. I have to rock her to sleep every night (only at night) and then we now co-sleep which seemed to improve things drasticly until now. Last night Dave really really wanted to let her cry it out a la carseat (she cries everytime were in the car, but there is nothing I can do, she needs to be in there for safety so she cries but always manages to fall asleep) but in my opinnion she wakes up in a way worse mood then when she is soothed to sleep. It’s so hard. So he slept on the sofa and I soothed her til I litterlly passed out.
I have a list of things to go over with my Dr. At her well baby next week cause I am having a rough time emotionally. I waited to be a mommy for so long and I love her so deeply it kills me that she is so unhappy. She hates everything except the breast it seems and sometimes some bright toys. Everything else is upsetting. The car seat, the cold, the wind, the sun, too much noise, too little noise, taking to long to feed her, being tiered….the list goes on. I hear other mom’s saying their baby is smiling lots and even giggling at this age 7.5 weeks but we only get indirect smiles so I can’t tell if their on purpose, and grins at my boob and that she stops crying when I hold her. My mom instincts still tell me this is nothing medical, that she is just a highly sensitive child having a rough go adapting to this new world and it’s just time til she desensitizes a bit and can start to enjoy it. In the meantime it’s so hard, I cry lots cause I really want to be enjoying this time instead of counting down the days to month 4. Public health nurses and doctors all seem to think this is normal in the first 3 months and they are the hardest for parents and she will outgrow this. They even gave me documents that show that most babies will cry the same amount in the first 3 months of their life as they will in the next 9 combined. Crazy. She is cute and snuggly and I waited so long and I am so grateful she is here but I am really struggling emotionally while dealing with her rough nighttime episodes.
Have to try and get nap in now.
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