Evangeline is nearing 4 months old..wow, she is keeping me busy. She likes to be busy, and I am trying to get myself out of the house more as it get’s warmer, to change it up some, and to get my butt off the couch. I am around but mostly just reading everyone else posts cause I don’t have the brain power or time to put into writing everything I wish I could say. She is just growing and growing,very long and lean still, I think that will be her way, she is in size 3-6 months exclusively now. Nursing has been wonderful, I was blessed that it came so easily to us both and has continued being wonderful and easy. We are also really enjoying our cloth diapering experience and figuring out what we like and dislike. I want to do another whole post about diaper reviews soon.
I love being her mom, sometimes I think I am way to sensitive for this job, I feel soooo deeply, and the intensity of the love completely overwhelms me at times and I just cry on her beautiful head, cause I can’t believe she is all mine and I feel panicked alot with making any decisions cause I am so afraid to make the wrong one and cause her harm. I am all over the place with so many parenting decisions, sleeping, establishing a routine and daily schedules, I have come to the conclusion I just have to go with my gut, I am really learning her, and her own personal needs and figuring out how to incorporate our family needs into hers and keep everything balanced.
I am especially anxious via the vaccine debate, but I doing lots and lots of research and on that front, and have been shocked to find out Canada’s Vaccine schedule is like half the length of the US one?? We are like attached, many states sharing the same climate and illness as us so I don’t understand that one. I was so impressed to see that our full vaccine schedule looks mostly like Dr. Sear’s alternative schedule.