Feeling stretched to thin

I don’t know how you parents with 2 kids under 3 do it. I can just barely manage to keep up with one, oy. I am just beyond exhausted my body aches for rest today. It’s the combination of being so busy for a week with my friends visiting then the day they were leaving Evangeline got really cranky and has been moody since, 5 days now, and sleeping really lousy. As I said in my last post, I blame her teeth and hope something gives soon. She has been asleep only 45 minutes now before waking up crying, Dave is in rubbing her back and trying to soothe her. I need my village, I need a break just for one day so I can get caught up on my sleep and sit still for a couple of hours. When I am exhausted and the baby won’t sleep much for days on end and then is cranky all day my anxiety and depression spikes. Brings back the OMG I need my mom… I am not afraid to admit I need help. I can’t do everything and be everything to everyone. All of this has made me deeply fearful of having another child, they are a blessing and I couldn’t love Evangeline more, but the thought of twice this is scary, I am barely keeping up now. I also worry that I have to go back to work in 4 months and I don’t know if the sleep situation will improve, I don’t know how I can maintain a full caseload of clients and still manage the home after work, and not sleep more the 5-6 broken hours a night.
Anyways, we have decided to sell our house and move to Moncton while on Maternity leave with a sibling for Evangeline so I can be near my family and get some support. Wow the baby is crazy hysterical, so even though Dave is trying to help me have a break it looks like I will have to take over again. I just spent 45 minutes nursing her and getting her to sleep, but she doesn’t seem to be soothing for him. I feel so bad for her cause she is just not herself this week at all. I know all this screaming and crying is probably related to her teeth. Hard on mom cause my heart hurts for her, hard on Dad cause he can’t do anything to soothe her and also has a chronically exhausted moody wife. Oy. Times are tough in the Maynard household this week, we just want to make her discomfort go away and help our baby to feel better, for all our sanity

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“Life is like riding a bicycle. To keep your balance you must keep moving.” — Albert Einstein. When it feels like your world has been shattered, and you have reached rock bottom, you must make a choice: Stay where you are and fade away, or keep moving forward. Thankfully I chose to move forward and was blessed with the two most wonderful children after the death of my first in early labor. Things are looking up.

Posted on September 6, 2010, in Uncategorized and tagged . Bookmark the permalink. 12 Comments.

  1. As a mom of two (okay they’re not both under three, but they’re four and super easy either. But you can handle it!!!!! You’re a Super Woman! If you can find your inner zen, E will pick up on it and hopefully settle a wee bit easier. Teething is never easy. You just want to take all that pain away. She’s likely got something big on the horizon.

    The nice thing is that these periods don’t last forever. They’re just a stage. It’s hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel, but believe me, it’s there. Good luck!

  2. As a mom of two (okay they’re not both under three, but they’re four and super easy either. But you can handle it!!!!! You’re a Super Woman! If you can find your inner zen, E will pick up on it and hopefully settle a wee bit easier. Teething is never easy. You just want to take all that pain away. She’s likely got something big on the horizon.
    The nice thing is that these periods don’t last forever. They’re just a stage. It’s hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel, but believe me, it’s there. Good luck!

  3. I’m sorry things are so rough, but it’s also nice to know I’m not alone. Peter has been so mellow for so long, and now the sleep is messing up, there is so much more crying, and he seems less happy. I see the little teeth buds so close to the surface.

    That plus James not getting the job he needed… we just feel so down. It’s like we are just stuck in this shitty apartment with no prospects.

  4. I’m sorry things are so rough, but it’s also nice to know I’m not alone. Peter has been so mellow for so long, and now the sleep is messing up, there is so much more crying, and he seems less happy. I see the little teeth buds so close to the surface.
    That plus James not getting the job he needed… we just feel so down. It’s like we are just stuck in this shitty apartment with no prospects.

  5. The teething tablets don’t help her?? I’ve given Noah just a tiny bit of baby motrin because he’s been teething and it does help him. Noah aka McClingy has made me feel like I’ll never have a daughter bc I cant take another one like him

  6. The teething tablets don’t help her?? I’ve given Noah just a tiny bit of baby motrin because he’s been teething and it does help him. Noah aka McClingy has made me feel like I’ll never have a daughter bc I cant take another one like him

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