Reproduction and Miss E.
Yes body, I realize that at 34 I am not getting any younger.
Yes body, I do understand I am fertile again and could fall pregnant anytime.
No body, I am not quite ready to take that leap yet. Thankyouverymuch, The Management.
Man of man, mother nature is one serious force to be reckoned with. I had a vivid, vivid birth dream last night, I mean I lay in bed asleep, hand over belly feeling the baby move within me. This has been happening ALOT. I mean I dreaming about pregnancy and birth every other night and thinking about being pregnant all-the-time…It is SOOO not the right time for us by any stretch of the imagination and we are using birth control. I mean if it were to happen, we would feel blessed, but we would prefer to wait at least til summer/fall minimum.
My point here is that it is not my mind, it is my body, my hormones, my reproductive urges TELLING me it’s time to get pregnant again. Telling me Evangeline is gradually weaning and now it’s time for another. I can’t believe the strength of the urges, it’s insane. It’s taking every last ounce of will I have to say no, I am not ready. Crazy.
Speaking of weaning, Evangeline has been gradually self weaning for quite some time now, for the past 2 months we typically nurse 2x a day. She is not interested unless she is sick or sleepy, so it’s only a comfort thing for her now as she loves food soo much. I am still giving her frozen pumped milk in her cup during the day, but when that runs out it will be strictly comfort nursing as my pumps are packed away and my supply is very low. I don’t think we will be nursing much longer, which sorta makes me sad, I told Dave I would keep pushing it until summer and then I will let her decide.
That is all.
Evangeline is AWESOME, so totally awesome, 1 rock’s my sock. She is changing so much everyday, and is BRILLIANT I tell you. I know I am biased but I am shocked everyday with how intelligent she is. She can formulate a plan, a very complex plan, and see it through to completion. She picks up books and reads them…no seriously, she opens the page and remembers what it says by the images. I mean this is because it has been read to her like 100 times but still. She knows the pets by name and knows how to pet them gently now. She speaks at least a dozen words, it’s mind boggling, I mean not really cause she has always had alot to say, but she is learning language so-fast-now…She LOVES music, all of it, music we sing or hum, music she plays with her own instruments and music on the pc or tv, she is totally a belly dancer in the making. She has always done this dance move were she does squats, then started waving her head around and clapping her hands, this week however she has added some shoulder shimmies into her moves and it’s hilarious. She is running, not walking. In fact in one month she has gone from walking, to running, to climbing on top of everything to reach other things. Yesterday she stepped on her play table to reach Dave’s liquorish on top of a bookcase. Last night when Dave was baking, she climbed his step ladder to the very top then tried desperately to keep climbing onto the handle so she could get a better view of the counter top. This new view of the world excites her to no end. Because she is so active, she is sleeping through the night with occasionally one waking to nurse. I am rested for the first time in a year and it’s glorious. I don’t even know what else to say, so instead, I will post video footage.
Climbing up, up, up
Getting down to the beat