I am exhausted, it has been a head spinning crazy month at work and I feel like I can’t get rested enough. I am sure the utter and complete lack of sunshine in NS for MONTHS now sure isn’t helping. It’s nearly June and there is no sign of impending summer aside from the blooming plants.
E. is sick with her gazillionth cold of the year. My anxiety and depression are on overdrive. I need a trip to Cuba asap.
I also want another baby…I dream about it..but it’s just not the right time…but then is any time the right time?
..I want to sell and get a bigger house BUT I want to move provinces ‘perhaps’, and in order to do that I have to switch jobs, which is not ideal to do whilst pregnant, I could move while on mat leave, but then we would have to rent awhile as no one wants to mortgage someone without a job..we can’t sell now cause we need to do some more work on our house first (we are building a fence for the backyard as I write) so all responsible signs say wait 1.5 years, then have another…when things are in order..however my hormones are say it’s about time to reproduce again please…and also I will be 35 in October…
Oh well, I will wait, and enjoy E, aside from age there is no other real rush right?