Learning to Speak your Mind!

I have always been a people pleaser. It’s built into my nature. I am the person who would bite her tongue and walk away from a conflict before speaking up. I have no idea where I learned this behaviour, or why I have always felt I am unimportant enough to let people walk all over me. Whatever the answer to it’s origins may be; at nearly 40 I have seriously had ENOUGH. I see other people speak up and call others out for their bad behaviours and I cringe, waiting for the situation to explode; and yet it rarely does. I am honest to goodness so surprised at how rarely calling someone out directly on their shit actually results in a battle for the ages. Then I think to myself how good the person who spoke up must feel having released that tension from themselves instead of just carrying it around letting it fester. I envy those people. One of the goals I had set for myself in 2014 was to practice speaking up more when I feel I am in the right or when I disagree with how a person is treating me. I assume it will get easier in time; at least I hope it does because right now it make me feel pukey.  However, I feel so much better when it’s all said and done, like a load has been lifted from me that I could have easily carried around for another 6 months had I have chosen not to speak up. This is a practice I think I could get used to. I am striving to be the women I would like my daughter to be. I want to live a life that is an example for my little girls. I want more then anything for them to describe their mom as being kind and loving but also tough and demanding of respect. I am after-all just as deserving of respect as any other human being. We all exist for a purpose, not one of us should accept or be ok with others treating us like we matter less then they do. Equal to that; none of us has the right to talk down to or demean another human being. Even the most irritating of people are in your life for a reason. Light and Love. frankie john

About mommamaynard

“Life is like riding a bicycle. To keep your balance you must keep moving.” — Albert Einstein. When it feels like your world has been shattered, and you have reached rock bottom, you must make a choice: Stay where you are and fade away, or keep moving forward. Thankfully I chose to move forward and was blessed with the two most wonderful children after the death of my first in early labor. Things are looking up.

Posted on January 13, 2015, in Uncategorized. Bookmark the permalink. Leave a comment.

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